I saw God today

I saw God in the heartbeat of my baby yesterday. After pushing back our ultrasound appointment as late as possible in the week in the hopes of seeing a heartbeat, my darling husband and I SAW and HEARD our precious baby's heartbeat.

I have spent most of the week sleepless worrying about whether we would see a developing baby or just an empy gestational sac. By Wednesday night, I was at my wits end - crying over something Simon whoever said on American Idol. Darling husband put me to bed about 8:30 after my progesterone shot. I am sure it was the combination of hormones and exhaustion that had me crying over stupid American Idol of all things. I despise that show and the cruelty they show to people.

Wednesday night was a pretty heavy snow storm, so we were not sure if we would even get to the clinic for the ultrasound. But, I think darling hubby knew that we had to get there and find out or I would go more insane than what I am normally.

We made it safe and got in for the ultrasound and right off the bat, I could see the most beautiful flutter. The doc didn't even need to point it out, but it sure did sound wonderful when he said, "Do you see your baby's heartbeat right there?" I could not speak. Then he asked if we wanted to hear it and I shook my head yes. Wow, it is undescribable to hear that sound that you have yearned for for so many years. I listened and watched as the tears rolled down my face. For one final kick, the doc said let's add some color and you could see the heart beating in flashing colors.

It was an amazing day and the greatest GIFT from God and I am so eternally grateful to Him for giving me this gift and blessing this pregnancy.

On the way home, I heard the song "I saw God from George Straight" for the first time and I knew that "I saw God" that day smiling down on me in that beautiful little flutter inside me.

Here are the lyrics for "I Saw God Today" sung by George Straight, written by Rodney Clawson

Just walked down the street to the coffee shop
Had to take a break
I'd been by her side for 18 hours straight
Saw a flower growin' in the middle of the sidewalk
Pushin' up through the concrete
Like it was planted right there for me to see
The flashin' lights
The honkin' horns
All seemed to fade away
In the shadow of that hospital at 5:08
I saw God today

I've been to church
I've read the book
I know he's here
But I don't look
Near as often as I should
Yeah, I know I should
His fingerprints are everywhere
I just slowed down to stop and stare
Opened my eyes and man I swear
I saw God today

Saw a couple walkin' by they were holdin' hands
Man she had that glow
Yeah I couldn't help but notice she was startin' to show it
Stood there for a minute takin' the sky
Lost in that sunset
Splash of amber melted in the shades of red

I've been to church
I've read the book
I know he's here
But I don't look
Near as often as I should
Yeah, I know I should
His fingerprints are everywhere
I just slowed down to stop and stare
Opened my eyes and man I swear
I saw God today

Got my face pressed up against the nursery glass
She's sleepin' like a rock
My name on her wrist
Wearin' tiny pink socks
She's got my nose, she's got her mama's eyes
My brand new baby girl
She's a miracle
I saw God today